Shame

Shame is vial creature
It lurks over me like an emotionless teacher

Lessons in life spinning out of control
Falling from the stratosphere in chaos into a black hole

Laughing uncontrollably
While fear and tension strangle every muscle like a monkeys grip on a tree

Anxiety strangles your every breath
Failure becoming a commonality on the way to your early death

Grave consequences seem to be the only answer I have every day I wake up
Ending it all with a swift pull of the trigger adds to the fear of my that runnith over my cup 

Screams of agony and torture echo in the hours of each new beginning
Knowing my day is filled with decisions of degradation and hazing

When I jumped into the abyss outside of the family I had
I had no idea the net would be so painful and sad

The sins of my mother and father soon chased me down 
Drowning my opportunities in a sinking hole of booze that I found 

Now that I've stopped my actions of self destruction and recklessness
I haven't seen such destruction that I've had to deal with

The first thought of each day jumps into my mind like a screaming rocket into space
Its how am I going to make it back to my happy place?