10 years a memories sliding through my mind like marbles in a sack
They used to be organized, filed away refined remembering when you had my back
I tell you what wrong with our holy matrimony
You look past that to your own lonely story
Pain shoots through my body when you can’t respect my boundaries
I don’t know if it’s me or your own selfish quandaries
I’ve never had my heart like this
Sleepless nights are my punishment why can’t we live in bliss
Changes In our routine punish me every occurrence
Anger fills my nostrils with every breath of non reassurance
Time and space seems to be your biggest enemy
An ally to my sanity, creating pain in our tranquil serenity
My demons are rearing there head when I realize the agony of not being together
I’m satisfying there craving killing myself slowly wanting an endless forever
Punishing myself for an obtuse sense of relationship
Years of me sacrificing me to make us make you want more of me creating hardship
I don’t know who I am and I know that hurts you
It’s my demon that I can’t seem to kill now it’s killing us all the way through
I don’t know the ending to this chapter for us
Our sons will never know the happiness we had in surplus
The people closes to me knew I was starting an incorrigible journey with you
They stood beside me knowing it was my love they seen so true.
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