DAD

The past three weeks

Have been so unique

I seen the storm clouds coming but was not prepared

For the fury of the life I can’t believe I dared

To stare it in the face like have done some many times before

It has taught me a lesson now that I’m washing upon its shore

Naked, alone, with no one to blame but myself staring at my own reflection

In the cold water seeing the countless rejection

Only a few people have had to deal with as much in there life as I have

With even less than that to build a successful life filled with such savv

I’m fortunate that my childhood prepared me for so much pain

I grew up to soon and now life a life of disdain

Those clouds are upon me now and I have no answer for their power

Every rain drop pelting me like the coldest shower

I grow weak and say things I don’t mean

I apologize and hear the defining sound of a silent scream

 Is that proof that I was right and you don’t deserve a piece of my humble pie

Who knows, things are so upside down I sit and thing where the people around me would be if I chose to 

take my life and die

I was in the 9^th grade when that day came upon me

And when I needed it god sent someone there who guided me to my knee

I’m almost 33 now and have two kids with one on the way

The only reality in my path to keep me from falling astray

I guess my calling was always to be father

In all my anguish none of my kids look at me like a bother

The best job I’ve ever had

Is knowing one day my sons will look at me and know they have a dad